Dude, your boyfriend is obviously of sound body, but I assume he's of sound mind too. I got news for you, if you've been dating for two years he knows about your chubby tum, your ample curves and yes, even your stretch marks. Sunlight has a way of revealing things over 730+ days.
I can understand that on paper you feel like something's wrong or off - magazines and the world at large tell you so, but believe me if chubby wasn't his thing he'd let you know; just as if rock hard wasn't yours. Besides I know a lot of women that would rather curl up with a Vincent D'onofrio type than do leg lifts with Adam Levine at the gym. The totality of who you are, plus your plus size, seems to be fine and dandy for your fit fella.
But about this inability to get naked in front of him; that I'd really urge you to work on. You are not grotesque, you are not sub par, you are simply different than him and that's that. He accepts that; it's time you do too.
what an amazing response. very well said .. I find this helpful myself. And to the OP take heed to the advice given, you should be comfortable in your own skin because it seems like he loves you very much. After two years I would assume he's happy where he is, and more importanly, who he's with :)
You answered this question very well, Funny Man. Thank you for that. A lot of women feel the same way the OP does, and it's nice to hear encouraging words; especially coming from a man.
To the OP, here is a story that might make you feel better. My brother is a personal trainer and Group Fitness Coordinator for a NYSC. He has a rock hard body too, lol. His girlfriend has a child from a previous relationship and she has a curvy body. They've been together for almost 5 years. He absolutely adores her.
So if your man has stayed, he LOVES you. You should love yourself too!
well, if you feel insecure about your body, why not take the next level and do excercise. Its not about having toned body and good physique, that's secondary. You do it bcos you love your body, you're upgrading it by means of taking care of it, doing regular excercise. You'll feel good inside out, trust me. Men are so attracted to women who take good care of themselves bcos it shows that they're capable to look out for others, too. Doing excercise equals to healthy living equals to longer life.
Sometimes, you just need to trust your partner's feelings. I know where you're coming from; my wife is out of my league and outclasses me in so many ways. But through her actions over the years, I've accepted she does love me for who I am, and its much better that way, rather than constantly second guessing yourself and harboring nagging doubts about his feelings or the relationship.
He's been with you for two years, he obviously loves you for you, as a total person, regardless of what flaws you perceive in yourself. It goes against what our society and our media tells us, but his attraction for you is genuine and based you as a person, and not on the media's definition of attractive. Accept his feelings for you, until if ever his actions determine otherwise, and enjoy yourself with him. The worst thing you can do is doubt yourself and constantly question the relationship.
I feel the same way, and you know what? He loves you! I could stand to lose 30lbs or so, and my boyfriend is fairly skinny, but he'll often put his hand on my stomach and get this silly grin on his face and say, "I love your tummy!" And one time I was joking about my fat legs and how I should try to make them skinnier and he got this horrified look on his face. It was the funniest thing! I've mentioned my insecurities with feeling inadequate (especially considering most mainstream porn stars have these perfectly flat abdomens) and he says that I'm perfect just the way I am. It's a constant struggle to not feel ugly or fat (especially considering boyfriend or not, I'd still want to lose weight) but I think I can sum it up nicely with one of the questions that I believe the Wise-Ass answered awhile back:
Q: How do you know your boyfriend wants to have sex with you?
A: He is your boyfriend.
If he's with you, he is obviously attracted to you, and more than that, he loves you for who you are on the inside. You've been reassured a million times. Now just give yourself the grace to go ahead and believe it.
Hopefully that "age" you speak of will cure YOU of your immaturity. Unfortunately, I doubt you will ever get it.