PLEASE do what he said..., now!!

This is a SERIOUS psychological illness and requires medical intervention. Please know that there is help out there for you. You CAN save yourself- and it's not too late. Just take one step to tell someone who will help you. You are important and you deserve care.

http://www.bulimiahelp.org
http://www.bulimia-treatment.net
http://www.bulimiahelp.org/blog/i-am-finally-free/10/07/thursday/i-am-finally-free

I hate to say this on such a serious question but honestly MM you have the most amazing tags.

They are half the reason I read your answers.

You're throwing up because you have esteem issues, and it feels good when you do that because your brain releases endorphins after throwing up. Endorphins are nature's pain killers, so experiencing them after a yak session is god's way of making us feel a little better after feeling so yak. But there are other ways you can still experience this endorphin "high" without vomiting, and it has everything to do with feeling great about yourself. When you feel great about yourself, you feel "high". But you don't know how to do that, or haven't had the experiences from your environment to feel great enough about yourself to get that high, so you NEED HELP NOW. also, don't consider what you are going through as right or wrong, throwing up is not right or wrong, putting those labels on yourself is going to make you feel worse about the situation. you need to think in terms of healthy/unhealthy. throwing up for ANY reason is UNHEALTHY. get help honey. and yes, let us know that you did!

Well yes it can be self-esteem issues. It also can be a way of controlling something it your life when everything else seems out of your control. Either case can be helped. People love you and want to help you.

You need to find something that gets you in a good mood instantly, something that makes you feel good about yourself and have hope that the world isn't such a horrible place after all. Hopefully, it will help you find ways to feel good about yourself that don't involve the health risks of throwing up all the time. If it's any help, here are a few of my "happy pills":

Kurt and Blaine's scene from "Original Song"

DJ Ozma's "Drinkin' Boys" video (also known as "Hide-penis dance", pretty self-explanatory, insanely hilarious)

Most medleys of Sheldon Cooper quotes

"Somewhere over the rainbow", sung by Israel Kamakawiwo'ole

Monet's "Impression, soleil levant"

Van Gogh's "Starry night"

Harry Belafonte's "Day-o (Banana Boat Song)"

Youtube make up videos

Let me just elaborate on that last one. I know it sounds vain, and silly because I don't actually use make up. There's just something very comforting about the way you see people turn beautiful right before your eyes.

I had anorexia for years and even though I was wasting away in front of my family, they had no idea what was going on. All my screams fell on deaf ears. The fact that you have reached out means you understand you need help. Right now it isn't fair to assume anything about why you're doing what you're doing. But this is an emergency situation. You're killing yourself, slowly and steadily. If someone was holding a gun to their head, I wouldn't stop and ask them about their childhood. First, I would ask them to put the gun down.
You need help. Professional, compassionate help. If you were able to stop on your own, you would have. It's not about will power, or strength. You're not weak for struggling with this behavior. You're stuck inside a coping mechanism that used to work, but isn't anymore. One day you'll figure out why you do this, and how to keep it from happening again. For now, I'm asking you to put the gun down. Walk into an ER and tell them what's happening. The first step is always the hardest, but we'll be here when you get back. I promise.

Sweetheart, please get help. I have been battling the same thing in varying intensity for 5 years now. The very person you are hurting (you!) is the only person you can truly trust and protect. Please look at yourself in the mirror. Your body is functional, powerful, and gorgeous, no matter what the shape or size. Please take care of your beautiful self. This world only gets one of you. You should be an example, not a statistic.

Getting off the computer is a great first step.
No one, no matter how expert they are, can diagnose you online. No one can treat you unless they meet you in person. Get real face-to-face time with an actual doctor stat!

please sweetheart go to--i don't know the name in tulsa, oklahoma--one of the best places in our country for anorexia/bolemia--my friend passed away her daughter went there-now she got great help and lives in florida got married and shes got 3kids now--doing great!!!!! i havent talked w/them since their mom passed but tulsa is big for oklahoma, believe me, call any hospital they can tell u--if u want help its up 2 u----and NO ONE ELSE!!!i wish u the best God bless

I wrote the question...I finally told my closest friend and she made me sign up for counseling.

Holy necro post, I know, but a few things I just have to say.

@Best kept Secret, I'm happy for you that someone you know and trust was able to get you the help you need. Good luck with this difficult time in your life. Asking for help is easily the hardest thing anyone can do, the rest is not easy, but the hardest is out of the way.

now;

@MM you are very lucky you got the response you did.
@MM & Everyone else
Having taken suicide awareness and ASIST (Applied Suicide Intervention Skills Training) courses I can tell you that MM went the wrong way about this. "That shit is just wrong, and you know it." is the very worst possible thing you can say. You risk the chance of alienating the person needing help and pushing them over the edge. What you should do is to understand the reasons why a person is thinking about committing suicide and then get them the help they need, this may be as simple as providing a list of sources that can help or creating an appointment for them.
I would suggest that MM should have dealt with this on a more personal level, such as direct email communications or a phone call (This is my first day on this site so I am not really familiar as to how it runs).
Granted this is the internet, so there are only so many ways to communicate effectively with the written word. Though I disagree with MM's methods, I must give him Kudos for successfully helping to turn this persons life around.

Now I understand the average persons aversion to discussion of suicide, I was brought up to believe that it was a sin, it was morally wrong. After a number of courses on suicide, I will no longer pass judgement on a person due to their actions. I'll leave it up to the big guy upstairs to decide whether it is right or wrong. My goal is to prolong life, just like "regular" First Aid.

I don't know if people will be coming back here to post, but I'll check now and again for the next few days to field any questions that may or may not pop up.

MM (and the rest of the GuysSpeak crew) feel free to email me directly, I'm sure you can find my email.