First you decide what you want, 'cause, to my eyes, you are seriously confused at the moment.
You like guys for the emotional stuff, but women for sex. That is making me wonder why. Nothing wrong with it - don't get me wrong - but that sort of dimorphism is unusual, to say the least, and arouses my curiosity. It is more usually the other way around.
But, you know what? That is your business, not mine, Attraction and emotional attraction is never wrong, it just is.
So ....
You thought of hooking up with a trans man? Male in everything but the functional bits, since surgery costs big time and most people simply can't afford the full conversion. It might fill both needs, for a "male" relationship, but a "female" for sex.
And yes, as the possessor of one, penises are objectively rather freakishly ridiculous.
Hey there, Yuki.